When people noticed and said something about my weight gain, I know they not meant well. It's not that i always thinked negative about people but the next question is always tagged along related with pregnancy, which annoyed me. I thought that people will give us the TTCian a tiny room to breath, a little space to live. But, as we know, they will never understand. They keep demanding to us to become like them. It's not that we don't want a child but the rezki is not arrived yet.
Everytime I called my mum, she keep updating me with a lot of pregnancy and status-upgrade news from my friends in my hometown. Some of her friend are making faces heard me being childless while their son/daughter had moved to the next stage.
If we are illiterate, we can learn
If we are stupid, we will study
If we are not pretty, we will beautify our skin and face with the latest technology
If we are poor, we will workd harder to become rich
If we are having any disease, we will try any cure
If we can't get pregnant, it is beyond our control..
Currently I agitating on Raya celebration. Raya celebration means the family will get together and updating each other. And, I don't know how to answer the 'annoying' questions from them, let alone their advice of baby making in the so-called 'pasti-jadi-anak' position. I don't want to hear "Tak ngandung lagi ye? Ada anak best tau!" from my sister/brother in-laws/uncles/aunties/unrelated relatives.. Can I replied "Best? Lecehlah!"?
I don't want to celebrate Raya in that way.